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nabeyaki
23 March 2009 @ 12:49 am
(song lyric by From Autumn To Ashes)

Here you stand seething with guilt.
Silence only justifies this act of cowardice.
The look stapled on your face cries out for forgiveness,
The one thing that I cannot give.

(Did you ever see that one person
And the way they do these things
And it hurts you so much it's like choking choking choking
Down the embers)

I can give you freedom from your guilt,
With a flick of my wrist onto yours.
I can give you peace of mind with a forced smile.
I can give you death with the look upon my face.

This is your freedom in a life of fallacy,
With no last kiss and no regrets;
You don't deserve good bye.
This is your freedom in a life of fallacy,
With no last kiss and no good bye.

Here you stand seething with guilt.
Silence only justifies this act of cowardice.

With a short story, the one you add to daily, you are the tragic loss.
No story book ending for this fairy tale of you.
Just the one composed with blood taken from your pen
That you hold in your lifeless hand.
Cry for you. Shed tears. Mourn. Wish the end.
Cry for you. Shed tears. Mourn. Wish the end.

(Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person,
And the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
And to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
You let this one person come down in the most perfect moment.
And it breaks my heart to know the only reason you are here now is
A reminder of what I'll never have
I'll never have... I'll never...
Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in.
Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in.
But this table for one has become bearable.
I now take comfort in this, and for this, I cherish you.
Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person
And the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
And to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
And you let this one person come down, come down.
I cherish you... I cherish you.
Just say you would do the same for me.
Just say you would do the same for me.
Say you would do the same...
Just say you would do the same for me.
For as much as I love Autumn,
I'm giving myself to Ashes.)
 
 
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nabeyaki
01 March 2009 @ 02:27 pm


Still so hard to accept the fact that you're gone forever,
Never knew I could hurt like this,
but I wish you a happy life there in heaven,
even though I also still wish that you were here to play with me again.
I was crying all the time,
never be ready to see you off,
now I had to know why I had to lose you for good.
Dear, I wish you were here to show your funny face and kiss me with your mustache and wet mouths, and your rough tongue.
It was really hard and really sad to know this fact,
never knew that it is harder than a broken heart feeling.

God, I hope that You will take care of my cat there,
and say hello from me to her,
tell her to eat, be good, and tell her that I miss her so much.
Tell her also, that she was a good and nice best friend of mine,
I promise I will look after her kittens
Tell her that her kittens miss their small mom as well.

Still can't stand to hold this feeling, hurts like hell.
But I wish I could be stronger,
yes I ain't so strong to go on,
but I'm learning to accept this reality,
and to accept the fact, even though it's so hard.
I wish my cat a happy life now and forever, in heaven
with this sincere heart and soul.

Love you and will always miss you,
Baby aka Makecil aka Jabrik (Rest in peace)
(February 2008 - 27 February 2009)
 
 
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nabeyaki
14 August 2008 @ 09:02 pm
Having such a terrible feeling, I don't know what to say, how should I feel.
Yes I was so happy because I'll go outside town next week with my mom and dad, but.. Things happen, the fate is so different from what we could have planned. My Grandpa got sick and everything is so blurry inside my mind, I was trying to smile again but it's only at the outside 'cuz each time I remember my mom's words, I keep on crying..

Mom told me that Grandpa said hello to me, he said that "Please send my kiss for Nana and Karim." And suddenly when I heard my mom saying lyk that, I was crying so hard.. I was being so happy to go outside town, start my holiday, and having a new crush.. But, that news make me so shock and don't know how should I feel..

And to be honest, this time I have a really bad feeling, my mom too. All that we can do is just pray and pray. I pray to God, I hope God will listen to me. God, would you please.. if You wish that my Grandpa will recover, then make him feel better 'cuz I really miss his smile and his jokes, but..... if you would say different, please.. just.. keep me strong so that I can accept it sincerely, I mean, all of us..

So please, all my friends who read this post, I beg you to pray also for my Grandpa.. All the best for him and us..
Thank you so much..
 
 
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nabeyaki
24 July 2008 @ 08:11 pm
Hello, it's been a while since I hav started my first time internship!
I love the job! Even though I don't work based on my studies in my university major (I mean as a marketing person), here in this company I currently helping on the financial matters and also accounting thingies..

Well I find it really interesting hahahaha.. But if I miss write the numbers, could be a disaster, though -__-. Doing accounting is fun, but I hate to take that major in university!! HAHAHAHA..
Oh ya by the way, I'm currently working as a part time internship person in PT Ababil Utama, Travel and tour agent.. So you guys if you wanna to travel outside Jakarta by using planes, just contact me! ^^

Besides my internship, I also currently helping my friends in selling her hand-made dolls. I'm as the agent, seller, owner helper.. and also doing stuff with the web.. Hehehe..
If you guys wanna visit the web or make an order, please visit this:

http://tearsieindonesia.multiply.com
(Indonesian only)

You can contact me also for further information or make an order.. Thank you!
 
 
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nabeyaki
Hi everyone~ yeah just find it too busy with uni life lately, but now I feel a bit relaxed! Yeah! And currently I really enjoy watching DVDs, read books, etc.. Also, modify and filling my new blog: just visit if you wanna~

http://naminamiyo.multiply.com

thanks! and now for the things i currently love!!!

Hachikuro J-dorama, Mukai Osamu, Twilight and Edward Cullen~Collapse )
 
 
Voel me: calmcalm
Luister naar: canvas - Ken Hirai
 
 
 
nabeyaki
15 March 2008 @ 08:03 pm
The last time I saw you, you turned away
I couldn’t see you with the sun shining in my eyes
I said “Hello” but you kept on walking
I’m going deaf from the sound of the freeway

The last time I saw you, you turned away
I couldn’t hear with your voice ringing in my ears
Do you remember where we used to sleep at night?
I couldn’t feel you, you’re always so far away

The first time I saw you, you turned away
I couldn’t see you with the smoke getting in my eyes
I said “Hello” but you kept on walking
I’m going deaf from the sound of the DJ

The first time I saw you, you turned away
I couldn’t hear with the noise ringing in my ears
Do you remember where we used to sleep at night?
I couldn’t feel you, you’re always so far away

I don’t, don’t wanna take you home
Please don’t, don’t make me sleep alone
If I could, I’d only want to make you smile
If you were to stay with me a while

The next time I see you, you’ll turn away
I’ll say “Hello” but you’ll keep on walking
The next time you see me, I’ll turn away
Do you remember where we used to sleep at night?
I couldn’t feel you, you’re always so far away

I don’t, don’t wanna take you home
Please don’t, don’t make me sleep alone
If I could, I’d only want to make you smile
If you were to stay with me a while

I don’t, don’t wanna take you home
Please don’t, don’t make me sleep alone
If I could, I’d only want to make you smile
If you were to stay with me a while
 
 
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nabeyaki
20 November 2007 @ 09:00 pm
like what my brother always does :)

always care, caring, love
although we fight everyday, every time, never agree in the same words..
although we rarely meet...

and i always complain to him, and he always does it too..

but never know why i love him so much!

just think that he's the greatest brother in this world =)
we have the perfect relationship of siblings hood...
 
 
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nabeyaki
13 November 2007 @ 09:02 am
hello world! another review from me, which is a song sang by Riyu Kosaka, which is "Platinum Smile" =D

i lyk this song so much, when the very first my brother listened it from youtube.com, and i also watched it directly ffrom youtube.com ... and then last sunday my brother finally found the mp3 from ... i dunno what the site is ^^;

ok, this is a soundtrack from kamen rider... but i dunno what kind of kamen rider since i don't watch tokusatsu series.. you should listen it, because it's soo nice...and enjoyable =D LOVE this song!! too bad i haven't found the lyric as well... but i'll give u the youtube's link: just listen it!



enjoy~
 
 
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nabeyaki
09 November 2007 @ 11:42 pm
i've been addicted to him lately! so cool so simple yet so outstanding! wish he were real and he were my boyfriend 8B

but anyway, love him! tee-hee, i love watching jigoku shoujo currently, just to watch ichimoku ren. ok, now i wanna talk about this anime :)

since i didn't watch it from the very first of the first season of jigoku shoujo,, so i don't know much about the details. hmm. but i think this anime is very interesting, because the main characters (which is Enma Ai and her assistants) are the punishers, and some particular people want to stop them punishing peeps.. and taking them to hell.. well, this is anime take another side of look, makes it different from the others anime, but i like so much! for the handsome ichimoku ren as well, makes me feel so eager to watch this anime!

the soundtrack is ok, but i like teh opening sounds only, tee-hee. =D

and here's the picts of ichimoku ren :D





 
 
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nabeyaki
hay everyone! huuf.. still doing this odd final project for the marketing fundamental subject! i need a break!! :(
anyway, currently listening to my new CDs! minutes to midnight by LP and the best damn thing by Avril! soo cool!
see my reviewCollapse )
 
 
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